Wholefood Goddess

Before i started this amazing journey on repairing a long 3 years of self sabotage on my body, I was battling with myself, every morning waking up to a body that was exhausted, bloated, horrible period pain, clouded mind and very depressive thoughts just some of the symptom I was allowing my body to feel as i was too lazy to go to the supermarket or concentrate on the fact that my body DOES NOT like bread and processed food very much!
I was back and forth from the doctors trying to get some medical diagnosis on wtf was going on with my body, let alone my mental state, as most of you who know me and where i used to be mentally emotionally and physically this was not who i was raised to be!!!! Then I hit rock bottom and you can imagine where that is with a depressive unmotivated mind…..thinking there wasn't a place on this earth for me, the impact this had on my marriage is unexplainable. When you cant love yourself how can you love someone else?
I was always a go getter, in 2008 i completed the Kokoda track and was part of a youth initiative to give underprivileged youth an opportunity of a life time to prove to themselves that they could achieve anything and everything they wanted in their lives, so one would think that i could replay this victory in my mind and drawn strength from that……?
Well…No I found that memory just that a memory i was so far from connecting to that because i was so far from where i was physically! I was disgusted with myself. And i guess I felt comfort in myself pity, replaying in my mind that after mum died there was no point in being here.I had totally forgetting the fact that i have so many people in my life that love me!
Then this gorgeous women who knows who she is kept popping up, Instagram Facebook, Instagram, and she looks fantastic,throughout my time knowing her she inspired me with her ongoing strength and resilience and her two babies who are just living proof of a victorious women!
Curious you would say and in some ways envious of her fantastic lifestyle balance, the curiosity got the best of me and i messages her, She gave me a life line, but with the life line came a commitment to myself and those who I could help.
I now sleep fully through the night, no night tremors, no waking up crying (unless a dog sits on me or falls of the bed), no depressive thoughts, no anxiety, no hating my body because finally I'm seeing so many small improvements that are all adding to me getting back to the person I was, the healthy, vibrant Milly. The one my Husband fell in love with! I'm most surprised at the fact I had the self esteem and self confidence to take on a new challenge, something I've aways wanted to do and thats helping others, when people don't feel 100% or they are just missing something I have all faith that i may be able to help change their lives!
The best part is I'm part of a community of Men and Women who are so connected to not just themselves on an honest level but also with others. We have a community of people who love people, who help people and who mentor and coach individuals to be the best vision on themselves!!!! FORVER!